Pedicure outside in the sun (and wind)- Lindsey inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Did volunteer website work- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Had grand old time with friends, another one who is moving from MT :( - Smai inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Did not do volunteer website work- Smai inner: Went to counseling • outer: Responded to people - Smai Sat on the deck while I waited for Michael to come home- Lindsey inner & outer: Spent time with and mourned loss of friend who is moving from MT- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Led somatic practice- Smai Stood outside for awhile. Copout but whatever- Lindsey inner: Yoga • outer: Climate Reality training- Smai Spent all day moving; so a lot of in-and-out time but none of it intentional.- Lindsey inner: Did somatic practice • outer: DSA barbeque out of social comfort zone- Smai inner: Went running • outer: 1 hr. coding practice- Smai inner: Holy Trinity (meditation, exercise, writing) • outer: 1 hr. coding practice- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Walked w/ friend- Smai inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Lots of social time- Smai inner: Counseling • outer: Website volunteer work- Smai inner: Deep beloved discussion about Body Keeps the Score w/ friends • outer: Climate Reality training- Smai inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Picked up trash in my neighborhood- Smai inner: Healed my post 2nd COVID vaccine dose body • outer: Wrote L a letter- Smai Was supposed to walk home from MVD but plans changed and was pretty busy the rest of the day. Oh well. - Lindsey inner: Tending the Roots conference • outer: 1 hr coding practice- Smai Biked to the new house (!!) and then ran 6M back- Lindsey inner: Tending the Roots conference • outer: Did not do 1 hr coding practice- Smai Took it today! And my probiotic. Hopefully as things get less hectic (and three more when we move) I keep the habit up!- Lali inner: 1 hr coding practice • outer: CFA racial accountability peer circle- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Guided somatic practice- Smai Walk to The Wok. And to pet the Newfie. - Lindsey inner: Did yoga • outer: Did 2 hrs take home coding test- Smai inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Did 1 hr take home coding test- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Reached out to neighborhood council to see what that is all about- Smai inner: Knew viscerally that I was enough • outer: Loved big @ job interview (despite my brain and body completely freezing and to my utter horror messing up the easiest question I could have hoped for. Alas!)- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Studied for 2 hours- Smai I really fell off the wagon, but hoping to get back on.- Matt inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Did a bunch of community housing volunteering stuff- Smai 6M run. I am ready for warmer weather. - Lindsey inner: Counseling • outer: MGH discussion- Smai Marking these as oops because I haven’t been checking in BUT I’ve been taking my vitamins about 50/50. Been a busy couple weeks that culminated in a new dream job!- Lali inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Studied for job interview- Smai v chilly walk after counting sage grouse- Lindsey inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Did not work on CT coding- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Did not do CT coding- Smai inner: Somatic practice • outer: Job interview- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Did not do CT coding- Smai inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Did website work- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Led somatic practice- Smai inner: Did not do Holy Trinity (exercise, meditation, writing) • outer: Did not do website work- Smai inner: Holy Trinity (exercise, meditation, writing) • outer: Extended family dinner- Smai inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Worked creating stuff with my hands for friend's biz- Smai inner: Got vaccinated! • outer: Fixed CT coding bug- Smai New month. I want to do better- Matt inner: Went running • outer: Did not do website work- Smai inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Showed up to DEI meeting with truth to power- Smai I think the habit is part of my weekday morning routine now. Weekends are but or miss but most morning I take my vitamin. I think it’s made a difference.- Lali inner: Went running • outer: Facilitated MGH meeting- Smai inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: 3 hours Capitol Tracker coding- Smai inner: Morning pages • outer: Break, enjoyed Butte visit with Andrea- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Sanding work- Smai Walked to buy lunch, and also strolled later with M- Lindsey inner: Somatic practice • outer: Attended Flathead SURJ meeting- Smai Took vitamin. I do it on the weekdays usually. It’s weekends I forget. But that’s pretty good.- Lali inner: Anne Braden & white antiracist ancestor reflections • outer: Attended neighborhood meeting- Smai Okay so I’m out of the habit of tracking it, but I feel like the habit of taking my vitamin is mostly there now- Lali inner: Read Artist's Way • outer: Fixed coding bug in Capitol Tracker- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Facilitated My Grandmother's Hands meeting- Smai inner: Did somatic practice (real-time) • outer: Responded to texts and messages- Smai inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Had 2.5 hour Me & White Supremacy discussion with my mom- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Fixed Capitol Tracker bug- Smai inner: Went running • outer: Did not research Buy Nothing groups in Missoula- Smai Took vitamin, feeling a little nauseous. No probiotic yet in case I can’t keep this down- Lali inner: Went running • outer: Planned My Grandmother's Hands group- Smai Grape vitamin and probiotic- Lali inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Did not work on NationBuilder project- Smai Grape vitamin and probiotic- Lali inner: Went running • outer: Coded 1 hr for Capitol Tracker- Smai It's my birthday and I'll stay inside if I want to- Lindsey Vitamin taken, probiotic taken, lots of water drank-en- Lali inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Coded 1 hr for Capitol Tracker- Smai Remembered too late to take my vitamin but did take a probiotic. Not gonna count it tho because the iron is what I most need- Lali inner: Worked on creative projects • outer: Showed up fully present at New Moon group- Smai Morning walk with R; prevening walk with M- Lindsey I am so hungover but I took my vitamin- Lali inner: Did not do Artist's Way tasks • outer: Barnraisers Project follow-up & volunteer- Smai inner: Drank 4 bottles of water • outer: Planned My Grandmother's Hands group- Smai short solo run + shorter walk with M- Lindsey inner: Went on a run • outer: Coded 1 hr on Capitol Tracker- Smai inner: Hiked • outer: Worked 1 hr on NationBuilder project- Smai Might have had a success or two in here but I didn’t record it- Lali inner: Went on a run • outer: Coded 2.75 hours on Capitol Tracker- Smai inner: Hiked • outer: Did not code 1 hr on Capitol Tracker- Smai inner: Somatic practice • outer: Coded 1 hr on Capitol Tracker- Smai Got out of my routine, oops!- Lali inner: Artist's date wandering the river bank and taking in the presence of the large deciduous trees • outer: Did not code for 1 hr on Capitol Tracker- Smai Probiotic, grape vitamin, slept poorly :<- Lali Took test 3/6. Went pretty fine- froop Solo walk. We've apparently skipped from February to June this week.- Lindsey I am 95% sure I took a strawberry but I can’t totally remebe- Lali inner: Went to therapy • outer: Facilitated My Grandmother's Hands practice group- Smai Strawberry, probiotic and vaccine :O- Lali Exam tomorrow. I feel prepared! I actually don't mind my slacking off the last two days which is kinda nice lol. Normally, I'd beat myself up over it. Is this evolution?- froop inner: Kindness to self - having a rough time • outer: Relational meeting- Smai End of the first month and I've fallen off the wagon. It's time to get back on.- Matt Wasn’t feeling it but fortunately Michael invited me to go on a walk- Lindsey inner: Day of No Inputs • outer: Coded on CT project- Smai Ski day! Actual light powder and some sunny parts. - Lindsey Exam in 2 days but I chose to binge watch Netflix movies. I'm not too worried 'cause thankfully, I did most of my work due diligently this time around. Thanks for that, past Me! Present Me, take notes. Yeah I am, this is literally a note- froop inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Did not code on CT project- Smai walked to a coffee shop for a mocha to go- Lindsey Took test 2/6 today. Pretty okay - froop inner: Did not do somatic practice • outer: Did not code on CT project- Smai I forgot to do my push ups and sit ups today- Matt still v icy and also wimdy af so nah- Lindsey Strawberry vitamin, probiotic- Lali inner: Did somatic practice • outer: Planned next My Grandmother's Hands meeting- Smai Icy af and not in the mood to deal with it- Lindsey Orange vitamin, probiotic, and an ito en black milk tea as a little treat :)- Lali Took the exam today. Very satisfied. Taking a break 'cause I wanna .. next exam is on the day after tomorrow. Soo tomorrow I'll wake up early, but even if I don't, no biggie. I'm happy :)- froop inner: Did not meditate • outer: Coordinated remote access @ Pov for CGM housing meeting- Smai Raspberry vitamin, probiotic snd coconut water- Lali Finals begin tomorrow!! Done with studying for tomorrow's test (by 11:30pm), it's such a great feeling. I'll wake up early to revise everything for the last time. I feel such great sense of relief about being done with this subject ON TIME. Off to sleep now!- froop inner: Hiked w/ Lucy • outer: Facilitated My Grandmother's Hands meeting- Smai Grape vitamin with oolong tea. Also took my probiotic.- Lali inner: Did yoga • outer: Did not write legislature emails- Smai Three full weeks of my goal complete- Matt Experienced a relapse of sorts. Got overwhelmed by work + a little sickness. Did a tiny lil bit of work which counts; started watching movies to prevent anxiety (Call me by Your Name; Elisa and Marcela)- froop inner: Went on a hike • outer: Relational repair- Smai Took my own advice and didn't fiddle around with unimportant stuff, skipping things that took longer than normal and I'm pretty much on schedule! It's a great feeling. Only three days till finals and I shall ace 'em :)- froop inner: Went on a walk • outer: Many hours of meetings and volunteering- Smai Vitamin, probiotic and some mango but no tea- Lali Feel like I can attain the goals i set for myself. Talking about studying ofc. A major issue is the fact I keep procrastinating the whole day thinking I won't be able to finish anyway and at night, I actually sit to work and I find it achievable. So hopefully, tomorrow I'd simply be punctual. Make it a point to not get stuck at something for more than 20 mins. - froop inner: Went hiking • outer: 1 hour Capitol Tracker coding- Smai Wasn't in a running mood so walked my route and listened to some podcasts instead.- Lindsey Grape vitamin, and probiotic... tea undecided still - Lali Realised I'm spending a ton of time on MAKING notes and I DONT EVEN HAVE TIME????!!! Wtf is wrong with me. Dont. Make. Notes. Now. For the love of God. Practice questions or some shet. Also, very close to reaching fuck-it stage 2.0, lol. Please get it together. You want a good GPA. You absolutely need it- froop inner: Did yoga • outer: Read My Grandmother's Hands- Smai Grape vitamin, probiotic, coffee with a bit of milk- Lali Fixed my overbearing, anxiety-inducing schedule a lil bit. Studied EMW. Pretty average- froop inner: Did not do yoga • outer: Common Good Missoula housing meeting rehearsal- Smai Orange vitamin, probiotic and chai- Lali Got overwhelmed w tasks and procrastinated the whole day. Began 1/3 tasks, currently studying 1/6 chap from EMW. Below average but still something- froop inner: Did yoga • outer: Wrote intro to and facilitated MGH meeting- Smai Grape vitamin and probiotic. Coffee with foamed cream, sugar, and salt.- Lali First day back to work. Walked to office, counts as moving my butt and bones.- June Finished some lingering chores and sat com. Began MTT part C but DSP and CA-anki still left. Not bad- froop DAY OFF! No expectations. AKA I spent 2.5 hours watching a docu-series about #FreeBritney. Dude, free Britney.- Smai Completed two weeks of my goal- Matt ruh roh. i peed on the bed big time becuz i was so cuddled and comfortable to my people. it was 2:30am. i had to go to the tub. paapaa mad @ me. i am a bad dog. :'(- Lucy Beyonce Bella Remebered a bit late in the day and I feel like the b12 in them kind of keeps me up so decided to skip- Lali Scrubbed house. Coins as moving:) - June Done w 1.5/3 tasks. Not bad - froop inner: Did not do yoga • outer: Made a pretty birthday card- Smai Took out the trash. This counts because normally I would ask Michael to do it. - Lindsey Orange vitamin (these might taste the best) and probiotic - Lali Did a lil bit of comp arch. - froop inner: Did not do yoga • outer: Finished reading MGH chapters- Smai freezing freaking cold. they have to persuade me to go to the yard. why can't i pee in the corner of the housee? mellow good dog.- Lucy Beyonce Bella Raspberry vitamin, took my probiotic, enjoying a cup of genmai cha- Lali inner: Did yoga • outer: Submitted final healthcare.gov report- Smai Slightly less pleasant two miles in -3.- Lindsey Don’t remember which vitamin I took, also took my probiotic and used my face cream - Lali inner: Did not do yoga • outer: Planned next MGH meeting- Smai ran away from paapaa after he graciously took me skiing in the mountains. ended up hitching a ride back to the house with a strange lady while paapaa skiied in the cold up and down for miles searching for me. i am a bad dog.- Lucy Beyonce Bella Took an orange vitamin and my probiotic- Lali Notebook is packed so couldn't study .. and didn't want to study either so ik this is an excuse. Just learnt exams begin on 24th (and not 16th) so thats good news. Still anxious tho. - froop Stuck to time management. Journaled lots of gains in bullet journ.- Andreas inner: Did yoga • outer: 3 hours of healthcare.gov project (finished! 😅)- Smai nobody took me outside. :'( i am a good dog. why don't they act like it? curled into a ball and pondered the meaning of existence- Lucy Beyonce Bella Strawberry vitamin, lavender black tea with honey and milk, probiotic, face cream.- Lali I might have reached the fuck-it stage. I'll only study as much as I comfortably can. Mental well being above anything. Began part C in Control Systems. Packed stuff for college, will miss mom but I'll be back here in summer! *Sigh* - froop inner: Did yoga • outer: 2 hours of healthcare.gov project- Smai Hard lesson but I did it.- miks got the freaking zoomies in the snow with my friends, didn't run away, checked in with my paapaa- Lucy Beyonce Bella Brisk walk outside with Michael. Brr. - Lindsey Raspberry vitamin. Face cream. Probiotic. White tea - Lali Took a day off(mom's birthday!), Mental well being restored- froop inner: 20 min meditation • outer: 3 hours of healthcare.gov project- Smai Felt AH-MAZING doing this lesson. Totally helped that I worked out, practised yoga and had a cold shower right before this. I feel my progress already, being able to recall vocabulary and grammar faster than I did a week ago. Soaking up all the knowledge today.- miks One week completed of my goal- Matt Grape vitamin. Headache :(- Lali Finished part C of EMW and Computer Arch., did a lil bit of German, couldn't do today's SC. Overall pretty good but still feel anxious and therefore dissatisfied. :/ But it's okay! Take it easy . Easy.- froop inner: Did light yoga • outer: Worked on healthcare.gov project (a little)- Smai Raspberry vitamin, jasmine green tea, probiotic, and face cream.- Lali Did a lil bit of SC and questions from EMW, didn't do German- froop inner: Did Artist's Way • outer: Worked on healthcare.gov project- Smai Felt so much sharper doing this during the day. Less mistakes and retaining information more with less strain.- miks had an absolute blast w/ my friend running in the snow. and wrestling. did not run away much to everyone's surprise. i am a goodest of girls. 5 day streak babyyyy woof- Lucy Beyonce Bella No work breaks, and changed into comfy pants before I thought about taking a walk. Oh well. - Lindsey Grape vitamin, probiotic, and some genmai cha.- Lali Began studying for the (rather unexpected) finals so. German + 1 chap in SC- froop inner: Did Artist's Way • outer: Worked on healthcare.gov project- Smai Did it at night again - definitely felt a lot more exhausted than I would have been if I did this in the morning. Will try again tomorrow. But still felt pretty alert and doing this at this time tested my comprehension.- miks Tooted whilst beggin for foods. didn't get any. i wonder if they are related. Momma gave me pizza box. and walked away. so i licked it. when she came back i thought i was in trouble. but nope im still a good dog. tooted once again while sitting on Momma in the big comfy chair. nothin happened to me. must still be a good dog- Lucy Beyonce Bella Full day, and don’t think a house tour counts - Lindsey Raspberry vitamin, probiotic, jasmine green tea, pets with the foster kitty- Lali I’ve been displaced from my home and distracted as a result. Walk the dog is the only consistent exercise I can do for now. - June Very light - 10 minutes exercise bike- ACS inner: Did not do Artist's Way • outer: Attended neighborhood organizing meeting- Smai Practiced at night. Feeling physically and mentally exhausted so it was no surprise that I was prone to more mistakes.- miks was a good and sweet dog. simmered down around deer on neighborhood walk. another mellow good dog day.- Lucy Beyonce Bella Grape vitamin, took probiotic, having a cup of genmai cha- Lali Bust. Sewer backed up at house. Have to find temp housing until repairs made. - June core exercise - x / read one chapter - x / meditate - - cate inner: Sang and played ukulele • outer: Read bills and wrote emails to legislators- Smai loungey rainy day, got out on a leash walk, pulled at the deer a lil bit. a little droopy. still a good dog.- Lucy Beyonce Bella Went for a run. In shorts. In February. 🙃- Lindsey Strawberry vitamin I think. Also took probiotic and had some lavender black tea.- Lali Goals/gains in bullet journal daily/rapid log- Andreas started making gay history by eric marcus. read from page 1 to 10. 19 pages.- Tumeric inner: Calculated January goal totals and added a new section to www.smai.space • outer: Finalized My Grandmother's Hands group doc- Smai folf 95%, grateful and gentle, a little tired. injured on hole 3 while almost catching 1 chipmunk. nap mode initiated- Lucy Beyonce Bella Raspberry Flinstone w/ iron, AND I took a probiotic... Unstoppable.- Lali didn't have the tab w me + Had to go out for some "official" chores - froop Day 1 complete, wasn't difficult at all, but let's see when the days get stressful.- Diana core exercise - x / read one chapter - x / meditate - x- cate Assignment in coursera / Upenn positive psychology course. - Andreas